||[Feb. 15th, 2010|10:53 pm]
Sometimes I feel like I'm looking at my life from the outside, but I have all the inside knowledge. Like my life is a movie that only I get to watch. Looking at my movie memories, I think I'm fundamentally not too different from how I used to be, how I've always been... and yet so many things have changed both in my life and in my head.
One of my best friends since childhood is getting married this summer. A girl I walked home from school with every day in fourth grade has a young child and a house (with the guy who used to piss me off in third grade by singing the Star Wars theme in my ear.) Many of my high school and college friends have graduated college or are about to graduate this spring.
For some reason this collection of things makes me feel a little bit young, inexperienced, and unready.
I had a nice Valentine's Day this year, which is interesting because in the past this holiday has been (variously) stressful, annoying, confusing, boring, or ignored. That said, it would have been a nice day regardless of whether or not the events took place on the 14th of February.